ANOTHER DAY IN THE LIFE OF ME PART A B C D E F WHATEVER,HOW I FEEL AGAIN ALWAYS ME

1. SO WHAT IS LOVE ANYHOW, HOW DOES ONE KNOW WHAT IT REALLY IS . I KNOW IT DOESNT FEEL LIKE I DO RIGHT NOW ,I FEEL PREETY BAD LIKE MY HEART HAS BEEN STEPPED ON A HUNDRED TIMES ,I MEAN I DID EVERYTHING I COULD LORD KNOWS HE HAD HIS ISSUES WELL SO DID I AFTERALL I TOOK HIM BACK 15 TIMES IN 3 YEARS AFTER EVERY TIME HIS MOTHER NEEDED HIM HOME FOR WHATEVER OR SHE WAS LONELY HE MOVED BACK HOME ,THE GUY DISSAPEARED FOR 6 MONTHS THE LAST TIME .. WHEN IS IT TOO MANY TIMES TO TAKE HIM BACK WHEN DO YOU LET GO OF LOVE WHEN ITS ALL YOU FEEL FOR THAT PERSON...I NEVER DRINK ALCOHOL OR DID ANY DRUG MY WHOLE LIFE THANK GOD I SAID NO MORE NOT GONNA HAPPEN MAYBE THATS WHY HE LEFT,APPARENTLY REASONS UNKNOWN ,HE FORGOT TO MENTION WHEN HE COULDNT SLEEP HE WAS BUSY CLEANING OUT MY CAR MAKING SURE HE DIDNT MISS A RECIEPT I MEAN COME ON A RECIEPT ..ONE WOULD THINK HE WOULD STOP GOING TO HER WHEN HE GETS DEPRESSED I WOULD OF HELPED AND NOT HIS MOMS WAY FORCING HIM INTO A CAR AND DRIVING HIM 3000 MILES AND HOLDING HIM HOSTAGE BUT IS THAT EVEN TRUE HE DID TELL THE POLICE THAT BUT SEE HE LIES SO MUCH HE BELIEVES HIMSELF.WHEN IS IT TOO MUCH TO KEEP DEALING WITH ,WHEN DO YOU STOP IT FROM HAPPEMING AGAIN I THOUGHT I HAD A WEEK BEFORE HE LEFT WE TALKED FOR HOURS,ALL GOOD STOP THINKING LIKE ME LOL.THE NIGHT BEFORE LEAVING IT WAS THE BEST NIGHT OF OUR RELATIONSHIP, GUESS THAT WAS MY GOODBYE, ISO WHAT I POSTED BEVERYTHING HE DID TO ME OR HIS FAMILY DID ON FACEBOOK BUT IT WAS ALL SO SO VERY TRUE,HIS MOTHER EVEN GOES ON TO SAY HOW SHE LIVES FOR THE LORD HE IS SEEING ALL THEY ARE DOING AND WOW IS HE MISSING THEM ALL TOGETHER , GOD WOULD NOT ALLOW THIS HE SPEAKS OF TRATING THY NEIGHBOR AS YOU WANNA BE TREATED OR SPEAKETH THE TRUTH ALWAYS  SHALT NOT SIN ,STEAL, LIE ...BE HUMAN IS THE MAIN ONE LOL SOMTHING THESE PEOPLE DONT GOT A CLUE ABOUT ,YOU DONT WALK OUT WITHOUT A WORD , BECAUSE DRUGS WERE DONE  NO MATTER WHAT THE REASON YOU JUST DONT..SHOULD OF RESPECTED ME AS I DID HIM ALWAYS AND TOLD ME HE WAS LEAVING,ITS HARD I GOT FROM HIM NOT WE R DONE TILL A WEEK LATER AND I DONT LOVE YOU YET WHERE DID YOU RUN TOO WHEN YOU RAN AWAY FROM YOUR  MOM, SISTER AND BROTHER AND LAW..EVERYONE BELIEVES HIS FAMILY .THEY KNOW NOTHING BUT HOW TO LIE SO THE MESSAGE IS THIS APPARENTLY DO WE GO TO CHURCH TO TEACH HOW TO LIE OR IS IT THAT NO MATTER WHAT WE DO GOD WILL FORGIVE YOU AS LONG AS ITS NOT  A MURDER!!!!WE NEED TO SEND THE RIGHT MESSAGES TO OUR CHILDREN ,ITS NOT OK TO LIE MY DAUGHTERS 11 AND SHE KNOWS EVERYTHING IVE DONE WRONG IN MY LIFE AS A LESSON TO BE LEARNED ...IM HAVING DIFFUCULTIES GIVING HIM UP ,HIS MOM WON YET I STILL WANT ,NEED AND LOVE HIM LIKE ITS NOTHING BEING ALONE SUCKS ,NO ONE HERE TO TALK TOO LOOK AT , MY FATHER DIED IN MAY THEN I HAVE TO BURY MY LIFE PARTNER IN JUNE FIGURTIVELY SPEAKING...WELL I DONT WANT TOO ITS NBOT FAIR TO BE USED LIKE THAT AND WHEN MOM SAYS COME BOY HES GONE ,I SEND A I LOVE YOU TEXT HE SENDS WE R DONE TEXT I DONT LOVE YOU . OVER NIGHT GUY OK I BELIEVE YA ,EVERY YEAR SAME OLD CRAP..HE KNOWS IM THE ONLY ONE WHO WAS SINCERE ,LOVED HIM WITH ONE EYE OR SCARS FROM EAR TO EAR OR EVEN STILL  AFTER LEARNING OF HIS ACCIDENT, BECAUSE OF FAMILY AND BRAINWASHING....FOR NOW ILL GON BUT SINCE IM ALONE ILL BE BACK CT..I APOLIGIZE IF I BORE BUT IM HOPING THIS IS A PLACE WHERE WE CAN HELP EACHOTHER,BECAUSE OF THIS I PRETTY MUCH NEED TO TALK ,VENT OR WHATEVER YOU CAN TOO BUT IF I SUCK KEEP QUIET LOL

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I WILL BE HERE DAILY TO ANSWER ANY QUESTIONS I CAN WE CAN HELP WITH CERTAIN TOPICS IF I HAVE TO RESEARCH THINGS MYSELF IT WILL BE MOSTLY ABOUT ME BUT I KNOW WE ARE ALL FACINATED WITH OTHERS LIVES CAUSE WE THINK OUR LIVE ARE US ALONE BUT TRUTH BE TOLD MANY HAVE THE SAME PROBLEMS , NIGHT

6/25/2012 ANOTHER TERRIBLY HARD DAY

MY HOPES ARE TO HELP PEOPLE ANY WAY I CAN EVEN IF I ONLY MAKE YOU SMILE ITS A START. EVERYONE NEEDS TO SMILE ..FUNNY THING IS IF MY BOYFRIEND OR EX BOYFRIEND WHATEVER HE MAY BE NEEDED  ME TODAY TO TALK TO EVEN IF HE DOESNT WANT ME ILL STILL BE THERE FOR WHAT EVER I CAN ID EVEN STILL RUN TO HIS AID IF I CAN..THIS IS BASICLY A PLACE FOR CHAT AND TO TALK TO PEOPLE AND MAYBE HELP SOMONE ELSE FEEL BETTER ABOUT THEMSELVES OR THEIR LIVES ONE SMILE AT A TIME , MY BOYFRIEND WAS THERE ALMOST SUCCEEDED TOO.I THANK GOD HE SURVIVED EVEN THOUGH WE HAD BAD TIMES I WOULDNT TRADE NOTHING EVER!!!ILL KEEP RIGHTING ABOUT ME AND THE WHOLE GAY WORLD JUST FOLLOW IF YOU WANT OR THROW IN A SENTENCE OR TWO EITHER WAY ALL ARE WELCOME..

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TODAY WAS AWFUL,I HAD TO STOP BY TACO BELL WHERE HE AND I WAS SO MANY TIMES BEFORE ALONE AND AS A COUPLE I WENT FROM BEING OK TO SO SAD AND DEPRESSED AND LONELY I MEAN ITS 3 AM AND I CANT SLEEP NOT UNDERSTANDING OR KNOWING WHAT TO DO, IM MESSED UP OVER THIS I SAVED HIM HOW CAN YOU KILL YOUR SAVIOR DESTROY THEM THE GREAT PERSON THEY ARE ,I ALWAYS HELP ANYONE AND EVERYONE ..ALL I CAN THINK HIS MOM KIDNAPPED HIM HE RUNS TO ME I KEEP HIM SAFE FOR SIX MOTHS THEN HE TALKS TO HER AND GOES BACK, SHE SAID HE WAS RETARDED HER OWN SON COME ON REALLY AND YOU GO BACK TO THAT ,,ANYWAYS I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A GOOD NIGHT ,I WELCOME ALL ADVICE ,HOWEVER FEELINGS CANT JUST BE STOPPED .LETS GET THIS GOING

I will start by telling you my story , its a love triangle or hardship not quite sure kind of thing it however left me so devastated and lost in the world.but  im here and wanna help you..life is such a hard thing to go through...if you need me im here for you i will do the very best i can to help you ..i can make suggestions or we can talk ,i cant help with money but i will share my heartfelt exsperiences and feelings..

I met this guy three years ago at a bar , i believed it to be love at first sight, never thought id  have this, i was married and with my wife for 20 years then i met him , my wife and i seperrated i never cheated either..then the relaitionship with him and i started to bloom..we fell in love big time ..then july boom he left me went home to his mom broke my heart but because i love him i took him back..it was month later.he cheated on me a couple of times while we was toigether while we broke up too he also had a drug and alcohol problem too i didnt yet i loved him so i looked passed it..love make you do many things..for three years it repeated to happen the cheating drugs and omg his mom causing so many issues she controlled him like crazy....she told him everything and he did it...did i mention that 3 years prior he tried killing himself with a gun , he was alittle slow and had his issues fake eye scars etc i looked past all that too ..they did the same thing to his first boyfriend too, like arrest , false accusations, mom did it all.in july of last year john vanished for six moths i lost him i was dead inside i couldnt live do anything..i got into drugs and drinking to be somone i wasnt all for this guy ..i just wanted him to love me that was all..he did come back jan 2nd ran away from home told me he loved me with all his heart and soul was sorry he had no control his mom kidnapped him and held him hostage drove him 3000 miles away...i helped him regain his life and conservatorship..get set up in life  as a  normal human being ..his mom said he was retarded couldnt walk to the store...needed 24 hour care..he did not he was normal and a sweet  normal loving guy..his mom is so messed up..very controlling demanding acts like his wife...not his mother....i dont understand said he hated her never wanted to see her again i was his savior he loved  me more then ever ,wants to be with me for life..the day he left right after i went to work he came back with police told me its hard its hard i said what the dishes ..then his family messed with me cops called 3 times..on me..i got a text/we r done!!!!!i do not love you!!!!!!!!  ill keep blogging

everyone needs alittle help from time to time because of bad thinjgs happening to good people like boyfriends or girlfriends walking out without a word , being abused by the ones we love. we are just saddened because the way life id dealing us a bad deck of card , we feel theres no way up or out of the deep b lack hole we are in im here and so many others together as one we can get through this..